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16 May 2006 @ 06:13 am
My Three Tenets  
I can reduce my current challenges to three basic ideas:

1) If I am judgemental, I will feel judged.

2) If I react emotionally I will create more of the same sort of situation in my future.

3) If I don't stay conscious I fall easily back into my old ways of responding to the world.

These aren't new ideas to me, but I feel I understand them a great deal better now than I did previously. Before it was more of a "shouldn't". I didn't associate my feelings of being lessened by the judgements of my competitive peers, with my own judgements of them. I was kind and gentle toward them, outwardly, but the little things about them that irked me were still there underneath. I was still judging them, and feeling them mirror this back to me.

In the slings and arrows of work it is difficult to stay conscious and in the present. I must be slow that it has taken me so long to come to my current understanding of this, but then I have had a long way to come. My genetic stock seems to be especially prone to female competition/war, which is likely why I find myself in an almost all-female work environment, with other women who mirror this back to me... and have been so long. I made superficial changes before, and was "working on it" but now I just have had this epiphany, and it's all stuff Ramtha has said, but I just didn't get *sigh*.

Here's a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don't Worry - Be Happy

In every life we have some trouble
But when you worry you make it Double
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Don't Worry - Be Happy now
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Don't Worry - Be Happy

Ain't got no place to lay your head,
Somebody came and took your bed
Don't Worry - Be Happy

The landlord say your rent is late,
He may have to litigate
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Look at Me - I'm Happy
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Here I give you my phone number
When you worry call me, I make you happy
Don't Worry - Be Happy

Ain't got not cash, ain't got no style,
Ain't got no gal to make you smile
Don't Worry - Be Happy

'Cause when you worry your face will frown
and that will bring everybody down
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Don't Worry, Don't Worry - Don't do it
Be Happy - Put a smile on your face
Don't bring everybody down
Don't Worry, it will soon pass, whatever it is
Don't Worry - Be Happy
I'm not worried, I'm happy . . . .