Here is a very enlightening insight into Nostradamus's Black Pope Prophecy

This one gives us reason to hope:
http://www.ramtha.com/newsletter/vol5/issue2/SP1.html

This doesn't offer much:
Nostradamus - 243
The great empire will be torn from limb,
The all-powerful one for more than four hundred years:
Great power given to the dark one from slaves come,
The Aryana will not be satisfied thereby.

This is supposed to mean - the US will suffer civil war, it was all powerful, and colonized 400 years earlier. Obama is the one from the slaves given great power, and the Aryan-sorts will be displeased.
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Saint Malachy had this to say about the last black "Pope":
Petrus Romanus
(In extreme persecution, the seat of the Holy Roman Church will be occupied by Peter the Roman, who will feed the sheep through many tribulations; when they are over, the city of seven hills will be destroyed, and the terrible or fearsome Judge will judge his people.

I can't help but wonder if "Peter" = the Rock, which is what the name means.

and if "Romanus" could also, less literally be "of the Republic". "The Rock of the Republic" seems more apt for Obama. Also, I have heard him referred to as: The Rock Obama.

Personally I think the city of Seven Hills is Rome but here is a link to a list of cities built on seven hills:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_cities_claimed_to_be_built_on_seven_hills
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And speaking of Caribou Barbie, I found this associated with her on a Nostradamus site:

At the war's end:
The Feeble Kept One will strike down the Night
And his Imbecile Queen will rise from the snow
Bedecked in finery and the pelt of a wolf.

I can't guess what the first part meant, but the second part seems to be Palin to a T.

When a woman comes to a certain age, usually when her children are nearing adulthood, she may come under the influence of Lilith, Goddess of personal
freedom, rebellion, and antagonism toward family. Is this a good thing, or is this bad? Who is this Lilith, and what does she want with my wife/mother/self? How does one know when Lilith has come? And how does one cope with her?

First, it is important to understand Gods and Goddesses as externalized images of the inner forces of the psyche. Every soul urge, every fear, and every instinctive urge that nudges us away from our core self, for example the urge to procreate, the urge to sex and marriage, fear of Father/Mother, can be seen as a god or goddess making known their influence. This way of understanding our urges and fears can be very usefull because it puts the I, the true self, in the driver's seat as observer and mediator. We say: Aphrodite has filled me with lust for this lovey man, but I know this isn't a good time or situation overall, to become involved with him. We say: Demeter has given me the desire for a child and the I decides yes, or no, or later. When we come to an understanding of true self, and the forces of the human condition which act on us, we have a powerful tool toward personal happiness and spiritual evolution. I just want to make clear that I do not believe that there exists, in the etheric realm, external beings aprowl for the susceptible, within which to express, though I could be wrong.

So who is this Lilith? Historically there is some evidence of such a spirit as far back as Sumerian times, were she appears as the wind spirit, driven out of

Inanna's Huluppu tree.
"Then a serpent who could not be charmed
Made its nest in the roots of the huluppu-tree.
The Anzu-bird set his young in the branches of the tree.
And the dark maid Lilith built her home in the trunk."
In symbolic language any tree with a serpent at it's base (the kundalini), a wind-woman in it's midst (the cerebellum) and a great bird at it's crown (the silent forebrain), what is being spoken of is the human central nervous system. That Inanna wished to drive out these things which give a human divinity and freewill, is to say she desired worship and dominion over a group of humans. Some scolars object to the interpretation of this being in the midst of the tree as Lilith, but the icon is repeated in many cultures (the norse world tree, the tree of the Hesperides) and is consistant also with later understandings of Lilith as self will in women.

It is possible we see Lilith again in the Burney Relief (ca. 1950 BC) a Babylonian terracotta relief of a winged goddess-like figure with bird's talons, flanked by owls and perched upon supine lions, though the identification of this figure is hotly debated. One thing not debated however, is that the owl was later considered the animal form of this goddess, that they share the same nasty reputation, and that the goddess was appeased by the wearing of amulets depicting an owl. Obviously the demonization of Lilith was well progressed at this juncture.

Later, in the first millenium bce., there are three closely related, Lilith-like figures found Babylonian mythology. Lilu, a male demon. Lilitu and Ardat Lili, who are female succubi. And it is believed Lilitu eventually became known as the Lilith of Isaiah 34:14 in the Hebrew bible, litteraly:
"yelpers meet howlers; hairy-ones cry to fellow. liyliyth reposes, acquires resting-place."
Which was translated in the King James Bible as
"The wild beasts of the desert shall also meet with the wild beasts of the island, and the satyr shall cry to his fellow; the screech owl/Lilith/Night hag also shall rest there, and find for herself a place of rest."
This referring to the desolation of Edom.

Lilith is mentioned in the Dead Sea Scrolls
"And I, the Instructor, proclaim His glorious splendor so as to frighten and to te[rrify] all the spirits of the destroying angels, spirits of the bastards, demons, Lilith, howlers, and [desert dwellers…] and those which fall upon men without warning to lead them astray from a spirit of understanding and to make their heart and their […] desolate during the present dominion of wickedness and predetermined time of humiliations for the sons of lig[ht], by the guilt of the ages of [those] smitten by iniquity – not for eternal destruction, [bu]t for an era of humiliation for transgression. "

Another text discovered at Qumran seems to refer to Lilith, again as temptress, and night demon. She is mentioned in the Talmud.

But the mythos of Lilith really is fleshed out in the anonymous work, The Alphabet of Ben-Sira, written sometime between the 8th and 11th centuries.

Here Lilith becomes the modern woman's heroine by refusing to assume a subservient role to Adam during sexual intercourse, and deserting him.
"She said, 'I will not lie below,'
and he said, 'I will not lie beneath you, but only on top. For you are fit only to be in the bottom position, while I am to be the superior one.'"
Lilith promptly uttered the name of God, took to the air, and left the Garden, settling on the Red Sea coast, where she further insulted Adam by taking demon lovers such as Samael, and birthing demonic children. Adam urged God to bring Lilith back, and three angels were dispatched after her. She did not return to Adam, so God had to produce Eve as Lilith's more docile replacement. The angels, swore to kill one hundred of Lilith's demonic children for each day she stayed away, but she countered that she would be revenged by preying eternally upon the descendants of Adam and the usurper of her position, Eve.

I highly recommend this link for more information: http://www.sacred-texts.com/bos/bos244.htm

It is easy to see that the myths of Lilith, that evolved in patriarchal cultures - Judaic, Islamic, Christian - would be viewed by women today as something of a smear campaign. To the modern woman Lilith is Adam's soulmate, his equal, who refused to be anything other than such. Lilith embodies woman's disappointment with the man of her girlish dreams, who never came for her, but, as embodied by all the men she has known, only wished to keep her in line with patriarchal intimidations. Lilith embodies the rage of a woman who knows her place has been usurped; who knows the world is a hostile place for her daughters; who's son grew up to be 'a man'. And the modern woman has hope that Lilith, as a storm Goddess, brings in on her wings the winds of change in midlife.

Our need for, and understanding of, Gods and Goddesses evolves as our culture evolves. To be reborn in this modern era Lilith had to speak to something in a woman's soul that hungered for expression. Thus, the historic depictions of Lilith are only relevant when they speak to this soul hungering, and those who point to the historic Lilith and say modern understandings are eroneous are speaking as folklorists, without recognizing the validity of her modern role. In decrying the modern woman's understanding of this Goddess they do us a disservice. It is they who have failed to understand her rebirth.

Much is written of man's midlife crisis, but not so much of woman's. How a woman may come to a point in her life when she has done all that society told her would bring her happiness and fulfillment, she has been a mother, a wife, she has served life, and has come to see that while society needs this service it has perhaps been a misservice to herself. She may feel society tricked her into assuming these roles. She may look ahead to oldage looming and recall the dreams of her youth, which slept forgotten as she was caught up in the dramas of motherhood and relationships. She may resent the people in her life who demand by their need that she remain as she has always been, 'Mom' and 'wife'. This is the influence of Lilith, or may be described so. This is really the reawakening of the soul.

This is bad news for those who need her to continue to serve their needs, children who cling to her strength, children who need Grandma to babysit,
husbands who would prefer her to remain a comfortable known. But it is good news for the woman. This is her second chance at spiritual evolution, which is the whole point of incarnation on this plane. So here we come full circle, back to the wind maiden in the tree, the cerebellum (in unromantic terms), which is the seat of God in the body.

What a woman needs at this time of life is strength and understanding. To understand the importance of her urge to destroy what has been and create something new from it; a new life, a step in spiritual evolution. The strength to fearlessly destroy that which is stultifyingly comfortable, and be faithful to her dreams. The strength to evade the chains of guilt over being 'selfish' enough, really self loving enough, to seek personal fulfillment.

In self love lies the key to reunion between Adam and Lilith. If they are soulmates, then to love self is to love the other self too. Love forgives, and after so many bitter years perhaps it is time Lilith dropped the angry victim role, and gave poor Adam some understanding and forgiveness. Afterall, we all came here, into bodies on a physical plane, to experince life, and other lovers is part of that. Without knowing the unfulfillment of other lovers how can one appreciate the greater love, of self. Most of us have experienced all that the human condition has to offer and now the experience only has to be resolved into wisdom, and once this is done love, true love is the natural next step in our evolution.

Lilith is a terrible Goddess, but great; and, if you are ready, represents a wonderful opportunity. So go out of your home some night and bless the wind. Embrace it and ask for it's blessings to flow into your life. Then hang on.

What if I told you that it would take only one person—one highly motivated, but only moderately skilled bad apple, with either authorized or unauthorized access to the right company's internal computer network—to steal a statewide election? You might think I was crazy, or alarmist, or just talking about something that's only a remote, highly theoretical possibility. You also probably would think I was being really over-the-top if I told you that, without sweeping and very costly changes to the American electoral process, this scenario is almost certain to play out at some point in the future in some county or state in America, and that after it happens not only will we not have a clue as to what has taken place, but if we do get suspicious there will be no way to prove anything. You certainly wouldn't want to believe me, and I don't blame you.

The rest is here: http://arstechnica.com/articles/culture/evoting.ars


( Jason Isaacs as Mr Darling )

"Pity the poor neurologists of yesteryear, saddled as they were with their conviction that our brains are hardwired after childhood. Then celebrate today’s scientists, who are exploiting brain-imaging technologies to show that our brains are capable of profound and permanent alterations throughout our lives. Neurologist Richard Restak does just that in The New Brain: How the Modern Age Is Rewiring Your Mind, even as he argues that we are being negatively altered by the sound-bite, techno environment in which we live. Technology such as functional magnetic resonance imaging, Restak begins, can now demonstrate that as a musician practices for many hours, certain neural pathways are strengthened. He then moves to a profound implication, namely that all kinds of technological stimuli are forging brain circuits that may hurt us instead of helping us. For instance, he cites correlations between positron emission tomography scans of violent people and normal experimental subjects who are simply thinking about fighting, then asserts that repeated viewing of violence on television and in video games can set up brain circuits that make us more likely to initiate real-world fisticuffs. Unfortunately, such brain imaging may leave more questions than answers. As Restak himself points out, the technology does not provide "neurological explanations," just "important correlations." Yet he is whipped up enough to diagnose all of modern society with attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder, the probable result of brain changes we are initiating in our media-saturated world. He reminds us of the antidote, though: we are still in control of what we allow ourselves to see and hear. In the end, Restak fails to create a sense that scientists have revealed a new way of understanding the brain. And the images that inspire speculation in the book still await research that may finally reveal the mechanisms of such phenomena as memory and aggression,"
- quoting Scientific American about Richards Restak's book The New Brain: How the Modern Age Is Rewiring Your Mind.

http://www.amazon.com/New-Brain-Modern-Rewiring-Mind/dp/1579545017

Muse:

The twilight is sad and cloudy,
The wind blows wild and free,
And like the wings of sea-birds
Flash the white caps of the sea.

But in the fisherman's cottage
There shines a ruddier light,
And a little face at the window
Peers out into the night.

Close, close it is pressed to the window,
As if those childish eyes
Were looking into the darkness,
To see some form arise.

And a woman's waving shadow
Is passing to and fro,
Now rising to the ceiling,
Now bowing and bending low.

What tale do the roaring ocean,
And the night-wind, bleak and wild,
As they beat at the crazy casement,
Tell to that little child?

And why do the roaring ocean,
And the night-wind, wild and bleak,
As they beat at the heart of the mother,
Drive the color from her cheek?

In reading the complete myth of Tantalus, compiled from various original sources, I was struck by the similarity between this family and the family of Ceridwen.

Ceridwen has a cauldron: a most beautiful daughter, Creirwy; a most ugly son, Morfran (also called Avagddu); and kills/eats, then gives birth to Taliesin, "shining brow". Tegid Veol is her husband. Ceridwen was going to kill the infant Taliesin but he was too beautiful, so she threw him in the ocean.

Tantalus has a most beautiful daughter, Niobe; a most ugly son, Broteas; and a third son, Pelops, who was killed, thrown in a cauldron, and reborn shining with divine light. The divinity supposedly from the shoulder-blade of a dolphin which was fashioned for him by Demeter, the only one of the Gods who partook of his flesh. Pelops is stolen away by Poseidon.

Perhaps Ceridwen should be seen as derivative of Ceres-wen, the white grain goddess.

The myth of Tantalus and in part Pelops is here: http://www.haidukpress.com/tantalus/index.html

If anyone who might read this is familiar with the myth of Ceridwen and Taliesin this ought to ring bells.

Muse:
( The Myth )

I am a story teller. I love telling people stories. I am a walking anecdote, my head full of metaphor. You might find me beside a campfire, weaving my craft. You might find me beneath a bridge with my fellow indigents. You could be at an inn, or in a pub, in the small hours of day and realize I am speaking, though you hadn't known I was, and suddenly be riveted. You might read one of my stories in a book. A friend might forward you one online. I love stories because I am one. I am a myth. I come from a family of myth, of mythic proportions, of gods and goddesses. They have gone but I remain; the heir of their legacy.

I am not without my enemies in the world of stories. Because we are, in fact, the end result of our dreams, our stories, there are those who wish to craft us stories that serve their purposes, and press those stories on us. These stories speak of sin, of a fall from grace that never happened, of only one perfect son. These stories tell us what is real and what is not, in defiance of our senses, our logic, our own and our neighbor's testimony. These stories define success and failure in such a way as to ensnare the soul. These stories sicken. These stories keep the mass of humanity pliable. And those are not my stories. In some cases they were mine once, but they were taken and twisted, so that rather than uplift and inspire, rather than inform, now they poison. If I could catch them, and lock them back in their box, I certainly would; but there is little more elusive of capture than a story. So it is that the responsibility of discernment falls on you, the listener, the reader, the observer. Will you choose to live a great story? What is a great story? Will you choose something inspiring? Or will you choose something more comfortable? Or will you embrace those stories that tell you the worst of humanity, unaware that what you choose to see in the world, which is your mirror, is ultimately yourself? Will you believe lies that pluck off the wings of your divinity, and burden you so that your back is bent double beneath load? And it's all a load of bull shit.

I know, beings such as I am, are not supposed to talk that way. Right? Wrong.

It would all be heinous, and tragic, if you were not a forever being. But you have, we all have, existed from the very beginning, and are without end. And here we must make distinct from one another, human stories, and divine stories. Human stories have a limited existence. They are born from a lack of knowledge, and resolve into the past when the wisdom of them is learned. Divine stories are never ending. They are a tapestry made of all the little stories, and embroidered with pearls of wisdom. Thus, you have, and we all have, chosen one set of human stories for one life, which may in practice stretch over many lifetimes, and a new set when those are finished, and so on and so forth, and will continue to do so. Did I mention forever?

Did I mention that while I am a story teller, I suck at endings. I just don't think that way. My version of an ending would be: and then he/she got it, and never believed such nonsense again, and chose a new story to live. Those I inspire often do think in terms of endings though. They have too often still been caught up in the illusion of mortality. And so many have felt a need to finalize their stories. They wrap it up and either move on to write a new story, or live a new story, or, more often, die. That doesn't bother me if their stories are small, human, transient stories, meant to end. I just don't like the inference that like human dramas, divine stories also end. He lived happily ever after? How about he ascended happily into the everafter. She died, but because she was good in the end, she went to heaven? Where she got to sit on a cloud and pluck a harp for eternity? How about, she died, but because she had learned the moral of her story she got to go on to a new one. All stories go on, because all lives go on; because all of life is forever ongoing unfoldment. Thus are the best of stories. Ongoing. Inspiring. Forever unfolding into that which is greater and greater.

If a person came up to you and called you a "dirty terrorist", or some other equally untrue curse, you or I might find that person the help they need, but we wouldn't let that slur in where it could hurt, or maybe even scar our emotions. Because we know we are not those things. But when another person slanders us, over a matter we aren't so secure about, we often do let those insults in where they often do wound us, for years even.

The answer to this is, of course, to know ourselves and love ourselves. We are divine beings on a human journey to enlightenment, and all that we need or needed to do, including the moments we stumbled, we were loved by our God, and should be acceptable to ourselves as well. I don't think a person could fail to love themself, once they were finally unveiled to their own full understanding.

I can reduce my current challenges to three basic ideas:

1) If I am judgemental, I will feel judged.

2) If I react emotionally I will create more of the same sort of situation in my future.

3) If I don't stay conscious I fall easily back into my old ways of responding to the world.

These aren't new ideas to me, but I feel I understand them a great deal better now than I did previously. Before it was more of a "shouldn't". I didn't associate my feelings of being lessened by the judgements of my competitive peers, with my own judgements of them. I was kind and gentle toward them, outwardly, but the little things about them that irked me were still there underneath. I was still judging them, and feeling them mirror this back to me.

In the slings and arrows of work it is difficult to stay conscious and in the present. I must be slow that it has taken me so long to come to my current understanding of this, but then I have had a long way to come. My genetic stock seems to be especially prone to female competition/war, which is likely why I find myself in an almost all-female work environment, with other women who mirror this back to me... and have been so long. I made superficial changes before, and was "working on it" but now I just have had this epiphany, and it's all stuff Ramtha has said, but I just didn't get *sigh*.

Song:
Here's a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don't Worry - Be Happy

In every life we have some trouble
But when you worry you make it Double
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Don't Worry - Be Happy now
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Don't Worry - Be Happy

Ain't got no place to lay your head,
Somebody came and took your bed
Don't Worry - Be Happy

The landlord say your rent is late,
He may have to litigate
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Look at Me - I'm Happy
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Here I give you my phone number
When you worry call me, I make you happy
Don't Worry - Be Happy

Ain't got not cash, ain't got no style,
Ain't got no gal to make you smile
Don't Worry - Be Happy

'Cause when you worry your face will frown
and that will bring everybody down
Don't Worry - Be Happy
Don't Worry, Don't Worry - Don't do it
Be Happy - Put a smile on your face
Don't bring everybody down
Don't Worry, it will soon pass, whatever it is
Don't Worry - Be Happy
I'm not worried, I'm happy . . . .

Etymologically, Ostara probably shares a common root with the word "east", the direction in which dawn rises.

Many linguists agree[1] that Eostre and Ostara are derived from the Old Teutonic root 'aew-s', 'illuminate, especially of daybreak' and closely related to (a)wes-ter- 'dawn servant', the morning star Venus and *austrôn-, meaning "dawn".Similar words, which it has been suggested are variations of Eostre's name, include Ostare, Ostara, Ostern, Estre, Eostre, Eoster, Eostra, Eastre, Eostur, Eastra, Eastur, Austron, Aurora, and Ausos. There is no certain parallel to Eostre in Old Norse though Grimm speculates that a "spirit of light" named Austri from the Eddas might be related.

According to Bede (c. 672 - 735), writing in De Tempore Ratione ("On the Reckoning of Time"), Ch. xv, "The English months", the word "Easter" is derived from Eostre, an Anglo-Saxon goddess of spring, to whom the month of Eostremonat, corresponding to our April, was dedicated:
"Eosturmonath has a name which is now translated "Paschal month", and which was once called after a goddess of theirs named Eostre, in whose honour feasts were celebrated in that month. Now they designate that Paschal season by her name, calling the joys of the new rite by the time-honoured name of the old observance."
What is secure in Bede's passage is that the lunar month around the month of April in the Julian calendar was called the Eostre-monath. And as the Christian tradition of Easter, which has also fallen in April, arrived in some Germanic-speaking regions, the people named the then-unnamed Christian day after the festival, that is, in English as Easter, and in German as Ostern.

In 1835, Jacob Grimm (1785 - 1863) published Deutsche Mythologie, a collection of German myths and oral histories, including extensive commentary on Ostara traditions in Germanic lands. Grimm suggested that various place names in the German Confederation were derived from Ostara's worship, noted the etymological connection between 'Eostre' and 'Ostara', and listed various traditions. Amongst these were the Ostern Hare, Ostara eggs, the Ostara sword, hilltop ceremonies at dawn, and other examples of traditions he believed to be derived from the past worship of Ostara.
The name Ostara was in fact a plural, referring (according to Grimm) to the multiple days of the festival. He proposes that it was also the name of a goddess, but no earlier texts stating this are known. Grimm suggested that the parallels between the names 'Eostre' and 'Ostara', months 'Eostremonat' and 'Ostaramonath', and holidays 'Easter' and 'Ostern' implied a common origin.

Most modern sources describe Eostre's festival as a celebration of the Spring Equinox. Bede, however, never stated this. Eostremonath is a lunar month, and as it starts with the new moon, can begin on a variety of possible dates.[2] Since the Spring Equinox falls on a single date in March, Eostremonath cannot be associated directly with the Spring Equinox.

According to Bede and Einhard, the month Eostremonat/Ostaramanoth was equated with April[2]. This would put the start of 'Ostara's Month' after the Equinox in March. However, it must be taken into account that these 'translations' of calendar months were approximate as the old forms were predominantly lunar months while the new were based on a solar year. As a new moon, signalling the start of a lunar month, does not have a fixed date, it is impossible to equate Eostremonat/Ostaramanoth precisely with the Spring Equinox, which occurs at a relatively precise time and date.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ostara
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eostre

The Egyptian name for Isis is "Ast" or "Aset". The connection between this and "Astarte" was known to, and written of, by the Egyptian Christians contemporary while the religions of Ast and Astarte were both thriving. The Romanization of Ast is pronounced "ē sēs". The Babylonian counterpart of Astarte was Ishtar, "ēsh tar". I believe you can find primary source material documents that show that the worshippers of these respective entities did equate them, that this is neither a Roman Imperial gloss nor a Ralph Woodrow fabrication.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Talk:Eostre

Eos ("dawn") was, in Greek mythology, the Titan goddess of the dawn, who rose from her home at the edge of Oceanus, the Ocean that surrounds the world, to herald her brother Helios, the sun. As the dawn goddess, she opened the gates of heaven (with "rosy fingers") so that Helios could ride his chariot across the sky every day. In Homer (Iliad viii.1; xxiv.695), her yellow robe is embroidered or woven with flowers (Odyssey vi:48 etc); rosy-fingered and with golden arms, she is pictured on Attic vases as a supernaturally beautiful woman, crowned with a tiara or diadem and with the large white-feathered wings of a bird. Eos is the iconic original from which Christian angels were imagined, for no images were available from the Hebrew tradition, and the Persian angels were unknown in the West. The worship of the dawn as a goddess is inherited from Indo-European times; Eos is cognate to Latin Aurora and to Vedic Ushas.

With Aeolus, the keeper of the winds, she bore all the winds and stars.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eos

Ushas, Sanskrit for "dawn", is a Vedic deity. She is the chief goddess (sometimes imagined as several goddesses, Dawns) exalted in the Rig Veda. She is portrayed as a beautifully adorned, sexually attractive young woman riding in a chariot. Twenty out of 1028 hymns in the Rig Veda are dedicated to Dawn: Book 7 has seven hymns, books 4–6 have two hymns each, and the younger books 1 and 10 have six and one respectively.

1. The radiant Dawns have risen up for glory, in their white splendour like the waves of waters.
She maketh paths all easy, fair to travel, and, rich, hath shown herself benign and friendly.
2. We see that thou art good: far shines thy lustre; thy beams, thy splendours have flown up to heaven.
Decking thyself, thou makest bare thy bosom, shining in majesty, thou Goddess Morning.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ushas

Hausos was the goddess of dawn in Proto-Indo-European religion. Cognate deities in later related religions include Vedic Ushas, Greek Eos, Roman Aurora, Lithuanian Aušra, and perhaps the Germanic Eostre. As a love goddess, she was also called Wenos - "lust" (which precursed Venus, Vanadis). Also cognate is Old Church Slavonic za ustra "early morning".
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hausos


Tol -
Old English Earendel appears in glosses as translating iubar "radiance, morning star".

In the Old English poem Crist I are the lines (104–108):

Hail Earendel, brightest of angels,
over Midgard to men sent,
and true radiance of the Sun
bright above the stars, every season
thou of thyself ever illuminest.

The name is here taken to refer to John the Baptist, addressed as the morning star heralding the coming of Christ, the "Sol Invictus". Compare the Blickling Homilies (p. 163, I. 3) which state Nu seo Cristes gebyrd at his aeriste, se niwa eorendel Sanctus Johannes; and nu se leoma thaere sothan sunnan God selfa cuman wille, that is, "And now the birth of Christ (was) at his appearing, and the new eorendel (morning-star) was John the Baptist. And now the gleam of the true Sun, God himself, shall come."

Aurvandil is mentioned once in Norse Mythology, in the Skáldskaparmál section of Snorri Sturluson's Prose Edda:

Thor went home to Thrúdvangar, and the hone remained sticking in his head. Then came the wise woman who was called Gróa, wife of Aurvandill the Valiant: she sang her spells over Thor until the hone was loosened. But when Thor knew that, and thought that there was hope that the hone might be removed, he desired to reward Gróa for her leech-craft and make her glad, and told her these things: that he had waded from the north over Icy Stream and had borne Aurvandill in a basket on his back from the north out of Jötunheim. And he added for a token, that one of Aurvandill's toes had stuck out of the basket, and became frozen; wherefore Thor broke it off and cast it up into the heavens, and made thereof the star called Aurvandill's Toe. Thor said that it would not be long ere Aurvandill came home: but Gróa was so rejoiced that she forgot her incantations, and the hone was not loosened, and stands yet in Thor's head. Therefore it is forbidden to cast a hone across the floor, for then the hone is stirred in Thor's head.
Guesses as to the identity of this star have included the polestar, the planet Venus, Sirius and the star Rigel which forms the toe of the constellation Orion, though if Aurvandil is to be identified with the constellation Orion one would expect to find Aurvandil himself being translated into the sky, not just his toe.

Old Norse Aurvandil, Old English Éarendel, Lombardic Auriwandalo, German Orentil (or Erentil) are cognate Germanic personal names. Auriwandalo is attested as a historical Lombardic prince. A latinized version, Horvandillus appears as the name of the father of Amleth (Shakespeare's Hamlet) in Saxo Grammaticus' Gesta Danorum. German Orentil is the hero of a medieval poem of the same name. He is son of a certain Eigel of Trier and has numerous adventures in the Holy Land. The Old Norse variant appears in purely mythological context, linking the name to a star. The Old English word refers to a star exclusively.

The second element of the name is probably connected to Vendel and the Vandals (preserved in Andalusia "land of the Vandals"). The original Germanic Aurvandil might therefore have been the mythical "Founder of the Vandals", just as Ingve with the Ynglings, Dan with the Danes, Angul with the Angles, Saxneat with the Saxons. Julius Pokorny connects the word with Proto-Germanic *āusōs, Anglo-Saxon Eastre, Easter, East, and ultimately with Hausos (Ushas), the Proto-Indo-European dawn goddess.

Eärendil the Mariner is one of the most important figures in the mythology, a great seafarer who carries the morning star across the sky.

Hesiod: "And after these Erigeneia ["Early-born" and Eos] bore [gave birth to] the star Eosphorus ("Dawn-bringer"), and the gleaming stars with which heaven is crowned."—Theogony 378-382

Lucifer was originally a Latin word meaning "light-bearer" from lux, "light", and ferre, "to bear, bring". It was a Roman astrological term for the "Morning Star", at that time believed to be the planet Venus. The word Lucifer was the direct translation of the Greek heosphorus "dawn-bearer"; Greek phosphorus, "light-bearer".

Sirius - Sirius is the brightest star in the nighttime sky. It is located in the constellation Canis Major. Its name comes from the Latin sīrius, from Greek σείριος (seirios, "glowing" or "scorcher"). As the major star of the "Big Dog" constellation, it is often called the "Dog Star". Sirius can be seen from every inhabited region of the Earth's surface and, in the Northern Hemisphere, is known as a vertex of the Winter Triangle. Historically, many cultures have attached special significance to Sirius. Sirius was worshipped as Sothis in the valley of the Nile long before Rome was founded, and many ancient Egyptian temples were oriented so that light from the star could penetrate to their inner altars. The Egyptians based their calendar on the heliacal rising of Sirius, which occurred just before the annual flooding of the Nile and the Summer solstice. In Greek mythology, Orion's dog became Sirius. The Greeks also associated Sirius with the heat of summer: they called it Σείριος Seirios, often translated "the scorcher." This also explains the phrase "dog days of summer".

The connection between Sirius and a dog. In Greek culture this became the she-dog of Orion. Gods who ride such animals, notably Shiva and Dionysos, or who have canine servants, notably Orion and Osiris (with Anubis his gatekeeper and embalmer). Dogs associated with various incarnations of Dionysos, as well as with Orion's dog (Sirius), were regarded as the discoverers, or bearers, of the first grapevine, this was probably because Sirius rose in the period of the vines blossoming, shortly before harvest. It also reached its highest point in the sky on around Jan 1st, just before the birth of Dionysos on Jan 6th (epiphany), associated with the opening of the first wine. The universality of Sirius lore, even the Pawnee tribe of North America, and others, referred to Sirius as the 'Wolf Star', indicates this Sothic Mythos may have extremely ancient roots, perhaps as old as the first humans to migrate from Asia.

Sirius rose with the nile flood and was also associated with epidemics, Sothis was thus a destructive and greatly feared goddess. Iachen was said to be an Egyptian magician who 'tamed' the power of Sirius and transformed it into a life giving power (just as the flood fertilised the land of Egypt with fresh nile mud). When Sirius rose the priests of Iachen entered the streets with torches lit from the altar, in order to channel the power of Sirius and heal any diseases unleashed by it. Iachen was known in Minoan Crete as I-wa-ko, who became the Greek torch bearing son of Persephone - Iakchos.

The Dogon people are a tribal people living in Africa whose lore contained pertinent facts as to the form of the Sirius cluster (that it has at least one companion star) and it's characteristics, before modern astronomers made the same discoveries. It is impossible to see Sirius's companion except with very powerful telescopes, and observing at the correct point in Sirius's orbit. They also knew that Saturn had rings and that Jupiter had 4 moons (Jupiter actually has many more, but only 4 can be seen with simple telescopes). This knowledge was the subject of the book The Sirius Mystery by Robert Temple, who linked the legends of the Dogon with the legends and traditions of the ancient Greeks, Egyptians, and Sumerians. The Dogon believe than our species was hybridized, and our civilization cultivated by people from Sirius.
They maintained that these people from Sirius were aquatic, or semiaquatic.

Eärendil is a Quenya name, meaning 'Lover of the Sea'.

In Egyptian mythology, Sopdet was the deification of Sothis, a star considered by almost all egyptologists to be Sirius. Just after Sirius appears in the July sky, the Nile River begins its annual flood, and so the ancient Egyptians connected the two. Consequently Sopdet was identified as a goddess of the fertility of the soil, which was brought to it by the Nile's flooding. This significance lead the Egyptians to base their calendar on the heliacal rising of Sirius. Sopdet was regarded as the consort of Sah, the constellation of Orion, by which Sirius appears, and the planet Venus was sometimes considered their child. The noticeably human figure of Orion was eventually identified as a form of Horus, the sky-god, and thus, together with her being a fertility deity, this lead to her being identified as a manifestation of Isis. The name Sopdet means (she who is) sharp, a reference to the brightness of Sirius, which is the brightest star in the night sky. In art she was depicted as a woman with a five-pointed star upon her head.

Venus - The pentagram has long been associated with the planet Venus and the worship of the goddess. It is most likely to have originated from the observations of prehistoric astronomers. When viewed from Earth, the successive conjunctions of Venus plot the points of a pentagram around the Sun in an eight-year cycle.

"I stand here on the summit of the mountain.
I lift my head and I spread my arms.
This, my body and spirit, this is the end
of the quest. I wished to know the meaning
of things. I am the meaning. I wished
to find a warrant for being. I need no
warrant for being, and no word of sanction
upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction.

It is my eyes which see, and the sight of
my eyes grants beauty to the earth. It is
my ears which hear, and the hearing of my
ears gives its song to the world. It is my
mind which thinks, and the judgement of
my mind is the only searchlight that can
find the truth. It is my will which chooses,
and the choice of my will is the only edict
I must respect.

Whatever road I take, the guiding star
is within me; the guiding star and the
loadstone which point the way. They point
in but one direction. They point to me."

I don't agree with everything Ayn Rand, but I like many of her points, and Anthem is a favorite of mine.

Mike came up with the title (Looking for the God Particle) in honor of CERN, European Neuclear Research, because they are nearing the completion of the building of the largest particle accelerator in the world. With it they hope to find "the God Particle". Higgs-Particle, or Higgs-Boson, is the proper name for the "God Particle". They are hoping to validate and unify their theories which were complicated by the discovery that certain force carriers do have mass after all. Photons, the force carriers of electro-magnetism, don't have mass, but in trying to combine the theories of electromagnetism with quantum weak force they found that the force carrier for weak force does have mass, so it couldn't be a photon acting oddly... unless... there was something called a Higgs-bosun.

The Higgs Particle (a scalar field/particle - Most fields and particles move, scalar ones don't) and its field - sounds allot like the Ether theory, or Vacuum theory. Its a field that exists every where, doesn't move anywhere, and it has strength (like water you live in all the time, but aren't aware of). If they find their "God particle" we will hear more about the Ether theory, because the premise upon which it was discredited will have been proven wrong.

So soon they will be ready to begin and it will be covered on the web. We are likely to see some very wonderful new technology come from this research.

Note - This is my understanding from the lecture I listened to, so if I got it wrong don't blame Mike.

In a mecanistic view of the universe, the clockwork of the universe was winding down, and will run out. They forgot that to run down, it first had to be wound up.

Einstein said: "All I want to know are the thoughts of God. Everything else is trivial."

I dreamed I was a great green snake in a pear tree, and then I was a Cretan snake goddess. I became entrances with serpent symbolism and totemic belief. Soon my daughter complained of seeing infrared snakes around the house.

I was swimming with my other daughter and there was a deep dark drop off not far from shore. I peered into in thinking there could be anything living in the dark bottom of a lake. There could even be sea serpents. Just then my daughter says: "I don't want to scare you, but I just saw a huge scaly thing swim by. I'm sure it must be infrared but lets get out now."

I was using a spider in my blue body web work recently, and this weekend my second daughter said to me she saw a huge spider head peering in through the window at her. It had more than eight eyes, and reminded her of Shelob. She said she knew it was an infrared being but still it was so real she had to duck out of sight to get a grip on herself.

I was thinking of things we could perhaps create as helpful creatures, like my gaurdian dragon, and thought (in a Harry Potter mood) a niffler to bring treasure and a house elf to do the cleaning would be nice. She saw both, or at least she saw the shadow of a "house elf" and a white mouse thing with a pompom on the end of his tail.

Obviously I need to be careful about what I am giving thought to.

I have loved this song but only today bothered to look up the meaning of the words used in it (not actually lyrics) Now I know why I love it so.

Navras - a Hindi word which, broken down, means nine ("nava") emotional states ("rasa") that are exhibited during music, drama, and the visual arts. The nine different states are as follows:
1. Love
2. Humor
3. Pathos
4. Wrath
5. Heroism
6. Horror
7. Disgust
8. Supernaturalism
9. Peace
The lyrics from the song "Navras" are taken from the Upanisads, a set of documents written in sanskrit used in the Hindu religion.

Brhadaranyaka Upanisad 1.3.28

asato ma sad gamaya
tamaso ma jyotir gamaya
mrtyor mamrtam gamaya

(Meaning:
From delusion lead me to truth
From darkness lead me to light
From death lead me to immortality.)

Isa Upanisad 11

vidyam cavidyam ca yas
tad vedobhayam saha
avidyaya mrtyum tirtva
vidyayamrtam asnute

(Meaning: He who knows both knowledge and action, with action overcomes death and with knowledge reaches immortality.)

Mundaka Upanisad 2.2.5

yasmin dyauh prthivi cantariksam otam manah saha pranais ca sarvaih tam evaikam janatha atmanam anya vacah vimuncatha amrtasya esah setuh

(Meaning: In him are woven the sky and the earth and all the regions of the air, and in him rest the mind and all the powers of life. Know him as the ONE and leave aside all other words. He is the bridge of immortality.)

Katha Upanisad 6.7

indriyebhyah param mano
manasah sattvam uttamam
sattvad adhi mahan atma
mahato vyaktam uttamam

(Meaning: Beyond the senses is the mind, and beyond the mind is reason, its essence. Beyond reason is the Spirit in man, and beyond this is the Spirit of the Universe, the evolver of all.)

Katha Upanisad 6.10

yada pancavatisthante
jnanani manasa saha
buddhis ca na vicestate
tam ahuh paramam gatim

(Meaning: When the five senses and the mind are still, and reason itself rests in silence, then begins the Path supreme.)

Mundaka Upanisad 2.2.8

bhidyate hrdayagranthis
chidyante sarvasamsayah
ksiyante casya karmani
tasmin drste paravare

(Meaning: And when he is seen in his immanence and transcendence, then the ties that have bound the heart are unloosened, the doubts of the mind vanish, and the law of Karma works no more.)

Om shanti shanti shanti

Like many mantras, this one begins with "Om". Om has no meaning, and its origins are lost in the mists of time. Om is considered to be the primeval sound, the sound of the universe, the sound from which all other sounds are formed. You could regard it as being the equivalent of white light, in which all of the colors of the rainbow can be found. One Sanskrit-English dictionary says the following: "A word of solemn affirmation and respectful assent , sometimes translated by 'yes , verily , so be it' (and in this sense compared with Amen ; it is placed at the commencement of most Hindu works , and as a sacred exclamation may be uttered at the beginning and end of a reading of the Vedas or previously to any prayer ; it is also regarded as a particle of auspicious salutation [Hail!] ; Om appears first in the Upanishads as a mystic monosyllable , and is there set forth as the object of profound religious meditation , the highest spiritual efficacy being attributed not only to the whole word but also to the three sounds A, U, M, of which it consists "

Shanti simply means "peace". It's a beautiful meaning and also a very beautiful sound. The shanti is repeated three times, as are many chants in Buddhism. You could interpret this as meaning peace in body, speech, and mind (i.e. in the entirety of one's being), or as a wish for peace individually, collectively, and universally.

Hindu teachings typically end with the words Om shanti shanti shanti as an invocation of peace, and the mantra is also used to conclude some Buddhist devotional ceremonies.

One way of knowing if you are acting from Spirit or from "personality" is that everything related to the personality has survival value. It takes self honesty to see the root of our behaviors, but that is because we have taught to be so judgmental of ourselves and others. There is nothing wrong with survival, and survival behaviors are something we develop when we are too small, or too young, or too abused to know know our own power. There should be no judgment in this, but there should be awareness of our own truth.
I was given a list to work with, and a format.
The list is: pain, insecurity, fear, doubt, success, failure, lack, prejudice, and war.
The format is: "My survival is enhanced by_____ because..." and "but my spirit is hurt by ____ because"

My survival is enhanced by pain because... when I am in pain other people help me, and they seem to feel good about doing so, sort of superior. So, it also puts me in their good graces.
But my spirit is hurt by pain because... it tells me convincingly that I don't have already what I need to be happy. It is a denial of my own strength.

My survival is enhanced by insecurity because... when I do not assume my worth, then I overcompensate, and this false humility usually cools down any hot egos who may, in turn, need a bit of groveling to feel secure.
But my spirit is hurt by insecurity because... I forget my worthiness. I forget that my God sees the world through my eyes and that without my seeing the beauty of the world there is no reason for it to exist around me. In insecurity I drive away the good things I am worthy of.

My survival is enhanced by fear because... it keeps me out of dangerous situations
But my spirit is hurt by fear because... it keeps me in the known, in stagnation, and stagnation is equivalent to dying.

My survival is enhanced by doubt because... if I am not trusting the it gives no one, and no thing, the opportunity to hurt me.
But my spirit is hurt by doubt because... doubt is not knowing, so that if I hold onto doubt I never know the truth of the beauty, and frailties of other people. Doubt, in terms of doubting God's power, and my power through my God, to do the miraculous, keeps the miraculous away as well.

My survival is enhanced by success because... it enhances my standing in the eyes of others, as well as bringing material comfort and security.
But my spirit is hurt by success because... it encourages me to see the world in terms of competition, and to stratify the worth of everyone, including myself, in terms of material possessions. It is also very addictive to have a great deal of comfort. It keeps us in a zone of comfort that is stagnating.

My survival is enhanced by failure because... in failure I do not arouse the jealousy of those more or less powerful, both of which may have the power to harm me, or mine.
But my spirit is hurt by failure because... it is founded in weakness. I would have to deny the power of my spirit in order to stay in failure.

My survival is enhanced by lack because... like pain, it attracts the help of others. Also, most of us are familiar with lack, and to throw it off is a step into the unknown, and survival's reasoning finds anything unknown to be fearful.
But my spirit is hurt by lack because... it tells me I am not able to meet my own needs, and is a denial of the power AND love of my Spirit for me.

My survival is enhanced by prejudice because... it allows me to associate unknowns, to things that I have experience with, and may at times provide me an early warning; for example, if my pet cat is at times vicious, I might suspect all cats of having this potential, and save myself from a lion.
But my spirit is hurt by prejudice because... I am, by doing this, telling an unknown how it must be and denying myself a virginal experience. And the point of life, as I understand it, is to make known the unknown.

My survival is enhanced by war because... when we defeat others we secure a commodity for ourselves, perhaps status, a mate, or financial advantage.
But my spirit is hurt by war because... we are all connected. To defeat, or, more sneakily, besmirch another's reputation; I would have done it to myself and would feel that pain I caused. Also it is based on the assumption that God hasn't provided enough, so that what there is has to be won.

It is as if survival was a squid, that has a tentacle wrapped around all the various neuronets relating them back to survival. I am fortunate that I have to look back at my past to see what survivalist theme each of these once played in my life. Not that I am completely without, but life is ever so much sweeter now. These examples are a good illustration of why the personality needs to be tamed, rather than gotten rid of. Because survival is important too, it just can't take precedence if one desires to be a master.

The word 'Avalokiteshvara' is derived from the Pali verb oloketi which means "to look at, to look down or over, to examine or inspect." The word avalokita has an active signification, and the name means, "the lord who sees."

The name Avalokiteśvara is made of four parts: the verbal prefix ava, which means "down"; the verb lok, which means "to look"; the suffix ita, which changes the verb avalok into a noun, "one who looks down"; and finally īśvara, "lord" or "master". In accordance with the rules of sound combination, ishvara becomes eshvara. Combined, the four parts mean "Lord Who Gazes Downward".

It is interesting to note here that a dominant feature in the description of Avalokiteshvara ... he is often represented with a thousand eyes symbolizing his all encompassing ability to view ('with compassion the suffering of others' - this article dwells on an interpretation of compassion not originally intended. It is helpful to find compassion, and masters are known for their compassion, but enlightenment was the aim)... Not only that, he further has a thousand hands.

"Om mani padme hum" is probably the most famous mantra in Buddhism, the six syllabled mantra of the bodhisattva of compassion, Avalokiteshvara. The Dalai Lama is said to be an incarnation of Avalokiteshvara, so the mantra is especially revered by his devotees. Pronunciation: O-oom mani pay(or pahd)-dmay hoom. A popular translation is "Hail the jewel in the lotus". Om = Hail, Mani = Jewel, Padme = Lotus and Hum sums it all up.

I bought the What the Bleep book recently. It is not light reading. I am studying it a bit at a time, as I really want to hardwire this knowledge. It has occurred to me that this is the science of magic that I intuited must exsist when I was still a girl with seemingly limmited resources, but a big hunger for something really remarkable.

Paradox 1 - atoms are mostly empty space. If the nucleus of an aton was the size of a basket ball, the nearest electron would be twenty miles away. But the emptiness isn't just nothing. Scientists believe there is more energy within the space of one cubic centimeter of mass, than there is in the entire explicit universe.

Paradox 2 - Subatomic particles exist as a wave function, or a a probability, and seem to only collapse into an actual particle when observed. This ties in to what Ramtha said about the things behind you begining to fuzz out when you weren't observing them. This says to me that a thing not give the credence of you observing their existance, perhaps a neuronet not visited, will fall apart perhaps permanently, thus freeing that for a new creation.

Paradox 3- Electrons do not orbit the nucleus of an atom, they appear in one place and then apear in another, without traveling between. They are popping in and out of material existance. And, the pattern of their jumps is seemingly at complete random.

Paradox 4 - The Uncertainty Principle. You can know the position of a subatomic particle, or its velocity, but not both, as IS possible in Newtonian Physics. Einstein really didn't like this, and it seems this was what prompted his famous quote "God does not play dice with the Universe", to which Bohr responded: "Stop telling God what to do."

Paradox 5 - Quantum Entanglement and Nonlocality. In this Quanta that are created in the same instance are sort of related in that what happens to one is instantaneously felt by the others it is entangled with, no matter the distance. This is like that experiment where two test subjects are introduced then taken to seprate, shielded rooms, and one is subjected to stimuli, but the other is not. Their ECG readings show that the subject not stimulated had brain waves like the fellow who was, at the same time. They were entangled, but they were unconscious of it.

Paradox 6 - A subatomic particle may be in two or more places at the same time. The latest test of this determined they could be at atleast 3000 places at the same time.

If a particle can do all these things then I, who am made of them ought to be able to as well.

She said in her talk today that she gives her focus to that which she is, not that which she doesn't want to be a part of her reality. This really resonated with me.

She also was saying that we become our parents, and learn from them lack. Then everything in mundane reality seems to confirm our lack of power, our lack. TV, teachers, religions... all tell us what we can expect from the world in terms of abundance.

She went on to say we often feel undeserving of abundance, but tells her students that manifesting abundance benefits everyone. It teaches that such a thing is possible, and even in a mass to mass way a wealthy person helps everyone just by spending money. If the person feels deep unworthiness they can take on a charity project and get involved in helping the poor directly... thus earning their own feeling of worthiness.

Then she has people manifesting abundance, but the won't do it again. They see it work and won't do it, because such a thing means change.

She talked about "walking my talk", which is actually walking and meditating on what you wish to manifest, so the ideal becomes part of you biochemically. And it is living your philosophy.

Then she talked about romancing life. To find and love the God in all things. She talked about Mother Theresa saying she did not focus on the pus and smells, she looked the people in their eyes and said to herself that in this body she would never come closer to seeing God than that.

"To become peaceful is to do away with the facades, the illusions, the images, that you wear for everyone and simply be free, wild, and wonderful to you. To obtain peace you must be willing to give up your unhappiness and simply allow yourself to be." -Ramtha

Wraps - 6 of Wands... Creative fire is more prevalent than sexual fire

Crosses - Hermit... I am not spending enough time meditating

Past - A of Wands... I have already been experiencing a heightened creative urge

Now - 4 of Swords... Four LJ I wish to express my thoughts in

Soon - Moon... perhaps I will be starting my period again soon, perhaps my body starts to show some changes

Later - Q of Coins... mastery of an actual physical manifestation

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Myself - 9 Of Wands... divinity in creative fire

My House - Empress... my mind maturing into a Christ

Hopes/Fears - Death... same thing, fearing actual change

Outcome 1 - 5 of Cups... Divine love

Outcome 2 - Ace of Swords... New begining in thought

Outcome 3 - Page of Wands... Runner of creativity or passion

Outcome 4 - Ace of Cups... New begining in love

Outcome 5 - Judgement... More mastery of predjudices

There seem to be alot of wands this time, which would indicate creative fire. Also alot of aces, new beginings.

"Fear is not knowing. Understand it. Fear is not knowing." -Ramtha

What is there to fear when you know that you are an immortal entity. Only the body ends, if it ends. In a reality of no time the body itself never ends. Am I my body or am I my spirit? When I am in fear I am being my body.

The interpretation of Grimm's fairy tales is coming along well. I seem to have a couple of guys who admire the work sincerely, and I have one troll who hardly bears mentioning. I need to not do these though, if I can't do them well. Last week's was trying, and I had to ask myself: who was I doing it for? I need to do them for myself, for my own understanding, and 'bully for me' if others enjoy too.

Funny about the troll... she was hateful to me because of what I look like, and seemed so sure I don't really look nice, I didn't have the heart to disillusion her. One of the hardest stereo-types to live with is the dumb blond one, I think. Guys always hitting on you. Never knowing if you can trust that it is you they like. Gorgeous men... with very bad habits, and worse attitudes. Nice men who don't dare to ask you out because you are "out of their league". Seductive men who definitely don't give a damn that you are also a person. Women who hate you on sight. Women who can't feel good about themselves until they have found some way to run you down, or make you feel like crap. Men who assume you are too young just because you don't look your age... no wonder I am celibate.

"If I could take all of your words away and give you but a sparse few, they would be: I know I am absolute, I am complete, I am God I Am. If there were no other words but these, you would no longer be limited to this plane." -Ramtha